Wednesday, March 28, 2012


today was a cranky day.
mostly to due with my previous post.
we had ear tubes placed in santino's ears this AM.
seriously, worst feeling ever to watch your baby come out of anesthesia.
add in some minor complications,
anesthesia causing a vocal chord spasm,
needing extra meds & an IV,
& this momma's a wreck.

a few hours later.
our boy is enjoying zucchini & red pepper cheese quesidillas.
smiling & playing.
children's resilience astounds me.
maybe tomorrow or this weekend i'll get in a true 11 month photoshoot.
for now,
some of the 365 photos of late.
pictures make me happy.
my boss caught me yesterday watching videos of santino on my phone.
they crack me up.
they make me cry at work.
but i need that connection.

goodbye fleece jackets & snow hats.
hello short sleeves & baseball caps.

santino thinks they're bffs.
everyday we sit on the deck when we get home from work/school.
santino laughs as minion prances around the yard,
and squeals if minion generously gives him so face licks.
santino thoroughly enjoyed his first taste of pinecrest pancakes.
& i'm happy to enjoy weekend tuscan omelets
 (spinach, roasted red peppers & provolone.nomnom!)!
my barefoot boy.
it's a normal day if he loses a sock at daycare.
shoes usually last 5-10minutes.
maybe when he starts walking he'll take some interest in shoes.
for now, he like the feel of the wind on his feet.

Sunday, March 11, 2012

the ear issue.

around 7 months i stopped being able to keep up with pumping.
i slowly switched santino to formula at daycare
& eventually at home.

to add on to my guilt about stopping bfing,
santino had his first ear infection.

it took two rounds of antibiotics to beat that ear infection.
in the next two months he had a total of three ear infections.

we scheduled an ENT appointment at CHOP,
but had a three month wait.

next week we finally get to see the ENT,
we'd gone two months with no ear infections.

i'd hoped that maybe when we went to the ENT
i could convince the doc that he was over his ear infection stage.

yet today after a 10day cold he woke up pulling his ear.
we went to urgent care and he's back on antibiotics
for a double ear infection.

i barely take antibiotics myself,
i think most of the time they're useless.
but when your infant is in pain,
it's hard to say no.

i have so much resentment and anger
over these silly ear infections.

anger that he's in day care,
even thought he loves attending everyday.

anger over my dwindling milk supply,
but knowing the little baby growing inside of me had something to do with that..
and not being able to hold the anger.

but sometimes you just have to stop
& realize:
he's happy
& he's going to be okay.

and i've made the switch to PICMONKEY !

Thursday, March 8, 2012


so many things to celebrate.
PURIM @ santino's school.
he's always the king around here.

one month to florida!
less than two months to someone's first birthday!
sunny, 70 degrees in march!

oohh and some other stuff..

he's really excited..

he's kept a secret for a few months..